Wednesday, August 24, 2011
"Let's Do Something Real" teaser.
This is a music video I am working on to the song "This Momentary (Skream Remix)" by Delphic. It's all for fun, and I'm learning After Effects in the process.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
uhhh tumblr
So I've been using Tumblr a lot lately. It's a little better than this, I think. More casual and easier to chat. I might not use this like, anymore. So yea! Check it out.
http://goldentotproductions.tumblr.com
http://goldentotproductions.tumblr.com
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Working hard.
I've been working really hard, focused on a lot of crap. You may be able to notice that from my latest animation "Liquid Ampora". I'm feeling a little better from the event posted in my most recent blog, and being actively working on something really helps.
Right now I have that animation done, and am also working on two music tracks. One is a remix to Around the World mixed up with One More Time both by Daft Punk. The other is a Prodigy inspired DNB track.
I am going to visit my Grandma and Dad on Saturday with my sister. Looking forward to it. From what I know, she's kept her spirits high, even after knowing of the loss of her boyfriend.
Thanks everyone for the support.
Right now I have that animation done, and am also working on two music tracks. One is a remix to Around the World mixed up with One More Time both by Daft Punk. The other is a Prodigy inspired DNB track.
I am going to visit my Grandma and Dad on Saturday with my sister. Looking forward to it. From what I know, she's kept her spirits high, even after knowing of the loss of her boyfriend.
Thanks everyone for the support.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Unfortunate Events.
I don't give a fuck what religion you are, all I'm asking is for your thoughts or prayers to go out to the Holmes family.
Yesterday just before 7:00pm, as my grandmother (who I refer to as Grams) and her boyfriend were on their motorcycles with about 4 or 5 other couples all taking a trip to Indiana with the thought of having some fun in mind. During this trip, one of the motorcycles was clipped by a reckless driver. The cyclist in turn flipped the driver off, which apparently is good enough reason to turn your car and run directly into the group of motorcycles.
Doing that, my grandmother and her boyfriend were flung into the air off their motorcycles. They were both hospitalized, and put under intensive care, as well as the driver.
They were rushed to the University hospital, and Grams ended up having gotten so fucked up from the accident, she may never walk again. When they pulled her boot off, basically every bone in her foot shattered. After all that, the one thing I am thankful for is that she is alive.
The same can not be said for her boyfriend. He died shortly after the accident. She has no idea, yet. The family is going to get together and let her know, and stay with her for moral support. My dad, however, is taking this extremely harshly. A few years ago he had been in an accident which caused severe trauma to the head. Due to his condition, he's being watched over to make sure nothing happens under his severe levels of stress. I can't imagine how he feels, being as close as he was with Grams boyfriend. What I'm even more afraid of is how she'll react. They were planned to marry in the next six months, and now he's gone..
I called my Dad after talking to the church's pastor, and supported him a bit. I'd never heard him that depressed and it took every fiber of my being not to break down and cry on the phone with him. I could tell he was happy I called, at least. He told me to call him whenever I needed, and that he loved me. I plan to call him every day or two to see how he's holding up, and perhaps spend a little more time with him.
I'm sorry to have dumped this on you guys, but I really needed to vent and this seemed like an okay place to do it. The entire family is extremely torn, especially my Dad and I. We're trying everything we can to keep our spirits up, and I just pray that everything will be okay.
Rest in peace, David Woosley.
Yesterday just before 7:00pm, as my grandmother (who I refer to as Grams) and her boyfriend were on their motorcycles with about 4 or 5 other couples all taking a trip to Indiana with the thought of having some fun in mind. During this trip, one of the motorcycles was clipped by a reckless driver. The cyclist in turn flipped the driver off, which apparently is good enough reason to turn your car and run directly into the group of motorcycles.
Doing that, my grandmother and her boyfriend were flung into the air off their motorcycles. They were both hospitalized, and put under intensive care, as well as the driver.
They were rushed to the University hospital, and Grams ended up having gotten so fucked up from the accident, she may never walk again. When they pulled her boot off, basically every bone in her foot shattered. After all that, the one thing I am thankful for is that she is alive.
The same can not be said for her boyfriend. He died shortly after the accident. She has no idea, yet. The family is going to get together and let her know, and stay with her for moral support. My dad, however, is taking this extremely harshly. A few years ago he had been in an accident which caused severe trauma to the head. Due to his condition, he's being watched over to make sure nothing happens under his severe levels of stress. I can't imagine how he feels, being as close as he was with Grams boyfriend. What I'm even more afraid of is how she'll react. They were planned to marry in the next six months, and now he's gone..
I called my Dad after talking to the church's pastor, and supported him a bit. I'd never heard him that depressed and it took every fiber of my being not to break down and cry on the phone with him. I could tell he was happy I called, at least. He told me to call him whenever I needed, and that he loved me. I plan to call him every day or two to see how he's holding up, and perhaps spend a little more time with him.
I'm sorry to have dumped this on you guys, but I really needed to vent and this seemed like an okay place to do it. The entire family is extremely torn, especially my Dad and I. We're trying everything we can to keep our spirits up, and I just pray that everything will be okay.
Rest in peace, David Woosley.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Woohoo tech gasms.
Well, this month I made a pretty penny and decided I really should fix my computer up a bit. One huge factor about my computer is that ever since I upgraded my CPU, it's been the laggiest crap ever. This is because my motherboard didn't support more than 4 cores of processing. I found a really neat motherboard a while back for $130 that supported 6 cores and had great reviews from gamers, so I decided to bookmark it.
Yesterday I went to order it, and to my surprise the price dropped to 80! I grabbed it so quick. I used every ounce of quickness in my body. That's not a lot, but still.
Decided to use the extra money I saved to grab a 1tb hard drive, since I'm running on about 80 gigs left with mine, and really had nothing to get rid of, plus I plan on doing a lot more recording with the new support the motherboard will give me. I'll be adding the 1tb on top of my 500gb, so that'll get me by for quite a while.
Thanks to this, I'm hoping I can Livestream a lot more. I will test it tonight by Livestreaming my Borderlands session with Austin and Jonna (We've been playing that a lot lately, since neither of them ever actually finished the game. Hopefully I stop crashing too, D:).
Going off on some more nerdgasm news, Crysis 2 had an update I've been anxious for since the game came out. Crysis 2 now supports DX11 and they also released new high resolution textures. This will make the game even more gorgeous than it already was. They have a video of it on their YouTube channel, I think. Other than that there are screenshots at http://mycrysis.com/dx11
I'm super excited to try that out when the computer parts arrive. Yes, they are arriving today, I pumped out the extra 30 bucks for overnight shipping, haha.
Austin keeps assuring me I shouldn't get my hopes too high, which is true. I don't want to expect the best computer ever and just get some small upgrade that will only help out to some extent. I can't help it, though. I always get so giddy about tech stuff, haha.
I guess some links are in order, if you guys are curious as to the parts I'm ordering.
Motherboard:
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16813131673&nm_mc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel&cm_mmc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel-_-Content-_-text-_-
Hard Drive:
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16822148697&nm_mc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel&cm_mmc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel-_-Content-_-text-_-
Yesterday I went to order it, and to my surprise the price dropped to 80! I grabbed it so quick. I used every ounce of quickness in my body. That's not a lot, but still.
Decided to use the extra money I saved to grab a 1tb hard drive, since I'm running on about 80 gigs left with mine, and really had nothing to get rid of, plus I plan on doing a lot more recording with the new support the motherboard will give me. I'll be adding the 1tb on top of my 500gb, so that'll get me by for quite a while.
Thanks to this, I'm hoping I can Livestream a lot more. I will test it tonight by Livestreaming my Borderlands session with Austin and Jonna (We've been playing that a lot lately, since neither of them ever actually finished the game. Hopefully I stop crashing too, D:).
Going off on some more nerdgasm news, Crysis 2 had an update I've been anxious for since the game came out. Crysis 2 now supports DX11 and they also released new high resolution textures. This will make the game even more gorgeous than it already was. They have a video of it on their YouTube channel, I think. Other than that there are screenshots at http://mycrysis.com/dx11
I'm super excited to try that out when the computer parts arrive. Yes, they are arriving today, I pumped out the extra 30 bucks for overnight shipping, haha.
Austin keeps assuring me I shouldn't get my hopes too high, which is true. I don't want to expect the best computer ever and just get some small upgrade that will only help out to some extent. I can't help it, though. I always get so giddy about tech stuff, haha.
I guess some links are in order, if you guys are curious as to the parts I'm ordering.
Motherboard:
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16813131673&nm_mc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel&cm_mmc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel-_-Content-_-text-_-
Hard Drive:
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16822148697&nm_mc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel&cm_mmc=TEMC-RMA-Approvel-_-Content-_-text-_-
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Robot Savior OUT NOW!
So after this long I finally got around to finishing the songs and releasing the album. Of course, it's free, to a limitation. As stated before, Bandcamp allows for free downloads using a ticket count. When these tickets run out (1 ticket is used for each download), I have to charge money for the album. When the tickets are gone the album will only be $3 until I can purchase more tickets (yes, in order to allow you guys to download the album for free I have to pay). Luckily there are some awesome fans who donate every now and then and I use that money to keep the tickets up. And now, here it is.
Advert video :
Album - http://dropbox.bandcamp.com/album/robot-savior
Notes about the album -
I think out of them all, my favorite track is definitely "ReInspired". It was inspired mostly by Homestuck music and early Resident Evil games, which can show through very easily. It's definitely a turn from the normal fast paced fuckshit I normally produce (i.e. Batshit Fuckstep).
I love all the songs on this album though, none the less. I worked pretty hard on it, and I think it's a huge improvement from "Respite".
I have a huge project for my next album involving a lot of beat boxing. ;)
Advert video :
Album - http://dropbox.bandcamp.com/album/robot-savior
Notes about the album -
I think out of them all, my favorite track is definitely "ReInspired". It was inspired mostly by Homestuck music and early Resident Evil games, which can show through very easily. It's definitely a turn from the normal fast paced fuckshit I normally produce (i.e. Batshit Fuckstep).
I love all the songs on this album though, none the less. I worked pretty hard on it, and I think it's a huge improvement from "Respite".
I have a huge project for my next album involving a lot of beat boxing. ;)
Monday, June 20, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Fuuuuuuuuuck
Tate Plays Minecraft is uploading. I really didn't wanna do this but it's by popular demand. We'll see how far I make it. xd
Friday, June 3, 2011
HURP DURP
Been a while since I posted a blog post. I've been pretty busy. I've been playing a lot of Maple Story lately, and anytime I'm not doing that I have Flash open or I'm editing a video. Sure, Maple could be considered free time, but oh well, I'm enjoy myself.
I currently play in Windia, and at this moment I am a 76 Chief Bandit. Pretty funded, thanks to fans who watch the Livestream and stalk me. I'm really appreciative to them, since they were so generous with wanting to fill my inventory, haha.
As for upcoming animations, I have a couple in mind, one being drawn and one being a Maple Story music video in celebration that BannedStory is back.
How've you guise been? :D
I currently play in Windia, and at this moment I am a 76 Chief Bandit. Pretty funded, thanks to fans who watch the Livestream and stalk me. I'm really appreciative to them, since they were so generous with wanting to fill my inventory, haha.
As for upcoming animations, I have a couple in mind, one being drawn and one being a Maple Story music video in celebration that BannedStory is back.
How've you guise been? :D
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Terrariairirerrreiaieria.
Terraria. In the 24 hours it was out, I managed to play it for 17.9 hours (According to Steam). I'm SO addicted, and it's so fun. For those who don't know, it's a hint of Minecraft, with a hint of Castlevania.
The game opens up and what do you need to do? You need to gather materials and make a house to survive the night. We've heard that before. Cool, but later on, you build more houses and NPCs move in and inhabit them, offering different services to you! You then venture into the depths to find jewels and ore to craft new weapons and armor out of, while fighting off hoards of monsters depending on the depth.
After you're geared up it's a good time to head to a corrupted area, dive into a chasm, and start breaking open some fucked up orbs! This will either get you lucky and spawn a meteor to mine in your map, or just spawn a boss to wipe you out. Either way it's a fun ordeal.
There's tons more, and I'mma start making vidyas! The game is only $10 on Steam, just go to http://terraria.org/
The game opens up and what do you need to do? You need to gather materials and make a house to survive the night. We've heard that before. Cool, but later on, you build more houses and NPCs move in and inhabit them, offering different services to you! You then venture into the depths to find jewels and ore to craft new weapons and armor out of, while fighting off hoards of monsters depending on the depth.
After you're geared up it's a good time to head to a corrupted area, dive into a chasm, and start breaking open some fucked up orbs! This will either get you lucky and spawn a meteor to mine in your map, or just spawn a boss to wipe you out. Either way it's a fun ordeal.
There's tons more, and I'mma start making vidyas! The game is only $10 on Steam, just go to http://terraria.org/
Thursday, May 5, 2011
My battlestation.
A few people on the Livestream wanted to know how my rig was set up, so here's a picture! I know I uploaded one a while back but this one's got some new toys.
It's a little messy under the desk but FUCK IT I DON'T CARE. I has Ramen because it's dinner time.
It's a little messy under the desk but FUCK IT I DON'T CARE. I has Ramen because it's dinner time.
New bed? New bed.
Yep. I finally replaced my piece of shit 15 year old broken down, rusted spring emitting, caved in mattress. I just bought a futon from Walmart for about $130, and it was worth every penny. Just slept on it last night for the first time and I ended up sleeping for 14 hours. That's the most sleep I've gotten for a looong time. I feel great right now, woke up, gonna have some breakfast, and work out a bit. Also playing Hidden today :)
Austin just released the first of many to come Hidden Source highlights on his channel. It's hilarious, and very entertaining to watch! Hidden is also a free mod, I think I've made a blog about it before.
So yea! I'm happy today. Hope you guys are too!
Austin just released the first of many to come Hidden Source highlights on his channel. It's hilarious, and very entertaining to watch! Hidden is also a free mod, I think I've made a blog about it before.
So yea! I'm happy today. Hope you guys are too!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Feeling alright now, I guess.
I basically spent all day yesterday in FL Studio and playing games. Finished a new song which is titled "Robot Savior", and will also name the title the same thing. An acquaintance of mine offered to do the album art so I'm waiting for that to release the song on YouTube. It's pretty sick, mostly Drum n Bass, but near the end takes an awesome trance turn. I might make an extended trance mix later on to release along with the album. Next I'll be trying my hand at some dubstep since I got some sick Skrillex massive presets from my buddy Taps.
After music is done, Austin and I decided to play some Hidden. I'm glad we got back into that game, it's pretty fun. A lot of new people are playing it too now since he released his video on the blog. I bet it'll get a lot more popular when the video is uploaded publicly, and I'm pretty excited for that. We played that for a couple hours or so but got sick of it since the servers we were playing kept crashing. I decided to try my hand in booting a server up for us to play but when I actually launch the server, the game crashes. It's a tad annoying, but hopefully I'll work my way around it so we can have a good stable fun server to our liking.
Later last night we ended up playing some Borderlands with Jonna. We'd all started the game over recently and have been playing a bit here and there together, and it's been super fun. Hopefully we'll get to do it a little more often, haha. The most fun part of the night was shooting my team mates as apparently my bullets can now heal them. I'm such a boss.
But yea, I'm gonna just keep on doing fun crap and not think about petty stuff that keeps me down. Hopefully soon I'll have what I finished of Shooting Stars up on YouTube, as well as Robot Savior.
After music is done, Austin and I decided to play some Hidden. I'm glad we got back into that game, it's pretty fun. A lot of new people are playing it too now since he released his video on the blog. I bet it'll get a lot more popular when the video is uploaded publicly, and I'm pretty excited for that. We played that for a couple hours or so but got sick of it since the servers we were playing kept crashing. I decided to try my hand in booting a server up for us to play but when I actually launch the server, the game crashes. It's a tad annoying, but hopefully I'll work my way around it so we can have a good stable fun server to our liking.
Later last night we ended up playing some Borderlands with Jonna. We'd all started the game over recently and have been playing a bit here and there together, and it's been super fun. Hopefully we'll get to do it a little more often, haha. The most fun part of the night was shooting my team mates as apparently my bullets can now heal them. I'm such a boss.
But yea, I'm gonna just keep on doing fun crap and not think about petty stuff that keeps me down. Hopefully soon I'll have what I finished of Shooting Stars up on YouTube, as well as Robot Savior.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Fucking sick of shit.
I just need to rant. Been having a bad week so far, even though it's only 3 days into it.
So yesterday was a pretty decent day up until the night. Was super excited because I had ordered a new CPU, and it was due to arrive. I finally got it, installed it, and had problems among problems getting it to function. Eventually after frustration, I got it to work. Decided hey I'll test out some games to see how this CPU will improve my experience. Oh what's that? It didn't improve at all! I mean I only upgraded from 3 to 6 cores, and got the best AMD CPU on market. Why would anything improve? Sure browsing around my computer is a little faster, and I can function a tiny bit better in flash, but when it comes down to it, I get even worse FPS than before in some games when I Livestream. It's pathetic. I was looking so forward to playing Bad Company 2 and being able to stream it and that was pretty much crushed. It's fucked up because apparently Procaster + BC2 = 100% CPU usage, but sometimes my usage will drop down to like 50 and I'll have great FPS for a while. Maybe switching stream sites will help. Justin.tv or uStream maybe.
Well, throughout the night I played some more games, and to add to the frustration I basically sucked at everything that night. All I could do properly was rage. Eventually got sick of it and decided to turn in early, fell asleep around 9pm.
This morning I wake up to my dog going insane, jumping up to the windows and barking like a maniac. I finally get up and look over my couch to see what he's barking at (My couch is beside my bed), and I see the shadow of a guy crouched down staring in my room. First thought is "Oh great, another fucking robber". I'll assume he was looking for a chance to break in, or something to break in for. Luckily my dog has a vicious bark and I guess kept him at bay. Once I woke up and told Ollie to shut up, he left. For some reason it didn't surprise me, as if I was used to it. I guess I kinda expect it all the time considering I live in a shit ghetto neighborhood.
Well, next up, I go on Maplemation and check the adsense stats. For some reason over the last couple days the hits have dropped to a ridiculous low. I decided to look more into it and found out one of my admins changed the sponsored link to a J-List sponsored link, which is a Japanese online outlet for a ton of weeaboo type products. The thing that pissed me off most about that was that the site is a half adult site. Even on the front page you see anime junk hanging out, and my website is a Maple Story animating community. Half the members are 12~14 years old, and I'd get a ton of shit if they'd maybe clicked the sponsored link and their parents saw them looking at some sort of hentai they didn't mean to click.
I have a huge feeling this isn't going to be the end of shit. Not sure how much more I can take before I fucking explode.
Edit - Also I got fucked over by Netflix and they took money out of my account when I didn't even owe shit, and got overdrafted for $50 bucks. Had to pay that, AND pay my mom extra rent because apparently paying every fucking bill isn't enough. I plan on moving out this year but at this rate I'm just digging myself into a hole.
Edit 2 - The .fla file for the Shooting Stars music video I was working on for months is now corrupt, and my screen recording program keeps crashing so I can't upload what I did finish to YouTube. This is really fucking amazing.
So yesterday was a pretty decent day up until the night. Was super excited because I had ordered a new CPU, and it was due to arrive. I finally got it, installed it, and had problems among problems getting it to function. Eventually after frustration, I got it to work. Decided hey I'll test out some games to see how this CPU will improve my experience. Oh what's that? It didn't improve at all! I mean I only upgraded from 3 to 6 cores, and got the best AMD CPU on market. Why would anything improve? Sure browsing around my computer is a little faster, and I can function a tiny bit better in flash, but when it comes down to it, I get even worse FPS than before in some games when I Livestream. It's pathetic. I was looking so forward to playing Bad Company 2 and being able to stream it and that was pretty much crushed. It's fucked up because apparently Procaster + BC2 = 100% CPU usage, but sometimes my usage will drop down to like 50 and I'll have great FPS for a while. Maybe switching stream sites will help. Justin.tv or uStream maybe.
Well, throughout the night I played some more games, and to add to the frustration I basically sucked at everything that night. All I could do properly was rage. Eventually got sick of it and decided to turn in early, fell asleep around 9pm.
This morning I wake up to my dog going insane, jumping up to the windows and barking like a maniac. I finally get up and look over my couch to see what he's barking at (My couch is beside my bed), and I see the shadow of a guy crouched down staring in my room. First thought is "Oh great, another fucking robber". I'll assume he was looking for a chance to break in, or something to break in for. Luckily my dog has a vicious bark and I guess kept him at bay. Once I woke up and told Ollie to shut up, he left. For some reason it didn't surprise me, as if I was used to it. I guess I kinda expect it all the time considering I live in a shit ghetto neighborhood.
Well, next up, I go on Maplemation and check the adsense stats. For some reason over the last couple days the hits have dropped to a ridiculous low. I decided to look more into it and found out one of my admins changed the sponsored link to a J-List sponsored link, which is a Japanese online outlet for a ton of weeaboo type products. The thing that pissed me off most about that was that the site is a half adult site. Even on the front page you see anime junk hanging out, and my website is a Maple Story animating community. Half the members are 12~14 years old, and I'd get a ton of shit if they'd maybe clicked the sponsored link and their parents saw them looking at some sort of hentai they didn't mean to click.
I have a huge feeling this isn't going to be the end of shit. Not sure how much more I can take before I fucking explode.
Edit - Also I got fucked over by Netflix and they took money out of my account when I didn't even owe shit, and got overdrafted for $50 bucks. Had to pay that, AND pay my mom extra rent because apparently paying every fucking bill isn't enough. I plan on moving out this year but at this rate I'm just digging myself into a hole.
Edit 2 - The .fla file for the Shooting Stars music video I was working on for months is now corrupt, and my screen recording program keeps crashing so I can't upload what I did finish to YouTube. This is really fucking amazing.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Close to a milestone.
Welp, I'm looking at my YouTube and it seems in a couple weeks or so I should have 25,000 subscribers. I think as a special I'm going to be playing a few online games via Livestream with the audience, as well as doing some live Q&A while playing. Does that sound pretty nice? I think it's a little cliché at this point to do a thanks video, since I don't have enough time to whip up an epic special.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
MOAR MUSICS
I'm glad you guys enjoy what I'm making. I made a bandcamp as you can see me explaining in my most recent video.
Here's a dubstep remix of that first song I threw out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOk-QK6ROS8&feature=channel_video_title
Here's a dubstep remix of that first song I threw out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOk-QK6ROS8&feature=channel_video_title
Monday, April 25, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
I just kinda need to vent.
I dunno. I'm in a pretty uhg mood right now. Depression and plain built up rage just kinda needs to be let out I guess. It sucks when you can't sleep, but you really want to. All that happens is you lay in bed, stare at the wall or ceiling, and think. Usually I'm able to keep good thoughts in my head, like perhaps something that happened over the passed couple days that I'm pleased with, and so on. Tonight I just can't. I've been laying there for hours just thinking about what's wrong, and it sucks.
It's not one big specific thing, but a ton of small things that I've just kept inside for a long time. I guess I'll just pick the biggest topic I want to rage about. Family, really. My family, as hard as they try, can't think of others for the life of them. My mom is pretty alright, being that she managed to take care of me up until now, but as it may seem I am supporting her very much with paying bills and such.
As ranted about a while back, I claimed I was going to eat better and get proper exercise to become a bit more fit, and I told her that over and over, yet she still fucks me up. Being that she is the only one able to do the grocery shopping, I have no way of being there with her to slap her hand and tell her no when she ONLY GETS FUCKING JUNK FOOD. She came home supporting me once with healthy crap like fruits and low cal/low fat meals, and that was when I first brought up me wanting to better myself. After that it's the same shit, over and over. Here's the HUGE reason I've overweight at all, and that's peanut butter. My mom thinks that every meal can be a peanut butter jelly fucking sandwich, and I'm so sick of it it's unreal. Peanut butter is decent for you once a day, and at a very small amount. She buys jars upon jars of peanut butter and jelly, with loafs of bread, and claims it's only because it's what we can afford.
FUCKING MEAT PRODUCTS. Sliced assorted meats are NOT expensive, and a HELL of a lot better for you than peanut butter 3 times a day. Those sandwiches don't even fill you up! Even ramen would be a nice substitute right now, but nope. Here's her grocery list every time she goes shopping -
Peanut Butter
Jelly
Bread
Snack Cakes
Pepsi
Chips
That's my entire life's diet plan. Seriously, what the hell? If I had a way to the grocery store uhg I'd get so much better crap. Hell, my dream is to live off fruit, LOL. I love fruit more than any other food, it's amazing. I just don't understand what drives her to get that junk every single time she goes shopping. Drop the peanut butter and jelly for a pack of bologna or ham or something. It's going to end up cheaper, you can get more, and you can freaking eat it 3 times a day without getting fat as fuck.
Good news is, I get paid here tomorrow or possibly today. I'll be ordering an exercise bike and will TRY to work off most of the weight I've gained over the years. Also, don't think I'm like some sort of monstrous blob, haha. I am overweight but not THAT overweight. I just want to feel comfortable in my own body, you know?
Yea, that's about it I think. I feel better now, it's good to blow off steam, heh. Sorry to just kinda throw all of this out there, in case you actually read through all of it. :p
It's not one big specific thing, but a ton of small things that I've just kept inside for a long time. I guess I'll just pick the biggest topic I want to rage about. Family, really. My family, as hard as they try, can't think of others for the life of them. My mom is pretty alright, being that she managed to take care of me up until now, but as it may seem I am supporting her very much with paying bills and such.
As ranted about a while back, I claimed I was going to eat better and get proper exercise to become a bit more fit, and I told her that over and over, yet she still fucks me up. Being that she is the only one able to do the grocery shopping, I have no way of being there with her to slap her hand and tell her no when she ONLY GETS FUCKING JUNK FOOD. She came home supporting me once with healthy crap like fruits and low cal/low fat meals, and that was when I first brought up me wanting to better myself. After that it's the same shit, over and over. Here's the HUGE reason I've overweight at all, and that's peanut butter. My mom thinks that every meal can be a peanut butter jelly fucking sandwich, and I'm so sick of it it's unreal. Peanut butter is decent for you once a day, and at a very small amount. She buys jars upon jars of peanut butter and jelly, with loafs of bread, and claims it's only because it's what we can afford.
FUCKING MEAT PRODUCTS. Sliced assorted meats are NOT expensive, and a HELL of a lot better for you than peanut butter 3 times a day. Those sandwiches don't even fill you up! Even ramen would be a nice substitute right now, but nope. Here's her grocery list every time she goes shopping -
Peanut Butter
Jelly
Bread
Snack Cakes
Pepsi
Chips
That's my entire life's diet plan. Seriously, what the hell? If I had a way to the grocery store uhg I'd get so much better crap. Hell, my dream is to live off fruit, LOL. I love fruit more than any other food, it's amazing. I just don't understand what drives her to get that junk every single time she goes shopping. Drop the peanut butter and jelly for a pack of bologna or ham or something. It's going to end up cheaper, you can get more, and you can freaking eat it 3 times a day without getting fat as fuck.
Good news is, I get paid here tomorrow or possibly today. I'll be ordering an exercise bike and will TRY to work off most of the weight I've gained over the years. Also, don't think I'm like some sort of monstrous blob, haha. I am overweight but not THAT overweight. I just want to feel comfortable in my own body, you know?
Yea, that's about it I think. I feel better now, it's good to blow off steam, heh. Sorry to just kinda throw all of this out there, in case you actually read through all of it. :p
Thursday, April 14, 2011
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